Enough"I'm pregnant."The teacup he is holding slows on its way to his lips, but he sips from it anyway, and then sets it carefully down in the saucer before picking up his quill again to continue marking the stack of parchments on his desk."Did you hear me?" I ask after what seems like an interminable stretch of silence."And I should care, why?""Because it's yours, you insensitive bastard!" I snap. I'm tetchy with him at the best of times, but the hormones, and the anger I feel at myself for my own weakness and carelessness, the seeming impotence I am suddenly overwhelmed with whenever I think of the enormity of the situation before me, are
AzraelThe girl in front of me is not at all what I thought she would be. It would have been easier if she had been older, angrier, uglier, or even just more disagreeable. She is my age, or perhaps a year or so younger. She smiles at me, a brilliant smile from behind wayward locks of flaxen hair. She has incredibly straight, white teeth, I notice, and her eyes are the palest blue I have ever seen. She seems to stare through me as she addresses me. I realize with a sick jolt that she is blind."I'm sorry, who did you say sent you?""Antonin Dolohov."She shakes her head.
GratefulYou lay in my arms, and you told me that I was the air you breathe. You said that I was the fire that consumed you and made you new, that I was the water that washed away all that was painful, and unclean in your life. I was the earth in which you planted your feet, the thing that kept you rooted here, and that I was ether, spirit, soul-your muse, and your inspiration.I wanted to call you a liar, or a fool (don't you know that it is you who are all those things to me), but there was something in your eyes that made the words catch in my throat. Instead I kissed you, and relished in the knowledge that you wanted me to, that even as you dr
One True Thing One True Thing“I thought you weren’t coming…” Severus let Lily know how displeased he was with his eyes, and his voice, with the scowl mixed with a pout he had been perfecting since he was four.“I’m sorry. Mum was taking fresh biscuits out of the oven, and I wanted to wait until they were done.” Fishing into the pocket of her coat, Lily pulled out a small lumpy package wrapped up in a paper napkin. When she folded it back the biscuits were still steaming in the crisp winter air, and little bits of chocolate clung to the fabric. She sat down on the swing beside him
Pears PearsLily watched the limp potato peels drop onto the newspaper on the table in front of her, as she helped Molly prepare the evening meal, and tried to ignore the heat of Sirius' arm pressed against hers. He was sitting too close again-always too-too everything these days. He talked too loud, he got too drunk, he whined too much
Yours YoursYou ask me to be yours, and I say yes. What else did you think I would say? From your hesitance, your pallor, the cold, clipped, professional tone to your voice, it seems you thought I would refuse you."There's no need to say yes. I only thought that it made sense. If we are going to continue to work
I Left Him Flowers - Part II I Left Him Flowers - Part IISirius seemed simultaneously thrilled and concerned to be here. Perhaps I should start taking an interest in my son, he suggested. Things were not going well, and he might be joining me here, if I didn't take a hand and do what I could from my side. Harry looked like his father. I was shocked at how much. He had friends-that was good. And he seemed as happy
Knowing KnowingHalf a breath away. First day of classes. First day as professor, and Aurora Sinistra's lips were only half a breath away. Stranger still, to Severus Snape's great surprise, he found he wanted her to close the distance, to finish what she had started. He shouldn't want it.
Trying to Forget YouSeverus,You have gone now.You aren't coming back, and I know that it is what I said I wanted. I know it is what I asked of you. I know I have no right to ask you to speak to me, to look at me, to hold me in your arms one last time. But, you've no idea the depth of emptiness, the loneliness in dark hours, the way I crave you, miss you, need you, breathe you, bleed you, seep and weep you from every pore. It is like you are a part of me that is slowly draining away. I scramble to gather up the pieces and somehow force them back beneath my skin, but they slip away, between my fingers, dispersed on the winds, diluted in the rains, and I l
Home Home“What?”“What?”“Why are you looking at me like that,” Lily demanded, pushing a lock of sweaty hair away from her eyes, as she looked up at Severus from where she knelt, scrubbing the floor of her mother’s kitchen.“’M not looking.”She just shook her head and went back to scrubbing. “Fine. If that’s the way you want it.”“It’s not.”“What?” She stopped scrubbing and looked up at him again, a look of irritation and slight confusion in her eyes. There were rings beneath them, so dar
Falling Falling“You can do it, you dunderhead, you just don’t know it!”“Um-mm…” Severus shook his head, eyes screwed tight shut.A sigh, deep and slightly frustrated, followed. “Trust—let go of your expectations, your inhibitions. You expect to fall and so you do. Forget about flying, and just walk out to me!”“Can’t…”“Yes, you can!” Lily had that tone in her voice, and Severus knew that had she not been floating a good twenty feet off the ground, parallel to the branch of the giant oak he was clinging to fo
In the Palm of Your Hand In the Palm of Your Hand“Come with me,” Lily beckoned, her green eyes crinkling up with her smile, the copper waves of her hair tossing in the sea breeze coming off the water.“Where?”“You’ll see…” she offered mysteriously. “Some place nice. I promise.”Severus followed her without further question. Quite frankly,
Missing YouMissing YouSometimes I miss you so much I bleed--Soul blood. Heart sick,gaping wide open.There is only emptiness where you were.How is it that you are still here, and not.I am alone with you.You are alone now too.A gaping chasm, too wide to be traversed.I am nothing without you.You fill me up--air to me,Air that fills my lungs to bursting,Blood that sings through my veins.Can one die while living?I think you can.In and out I breathe, but you are not there,and my soul is numb and cold--frozen.Your touch animated me;your lips whispering across my skin, lit me up.The feel of you over me, under me, in me, ar
Flying too Close to the Sun Flying too Close to the Sun“Come on, Sev, stop being a baby. It’s not that high.”“’M not being a baby…”“Then why are you pouting like one.” That earned her a scowl, and Lily Evans laughed with delight. “You know I’m just teasing. Come on, the climb will be worth it, I promise.” She waited for Severus on the small ledge halfway up the cliff by the sea, and reached out a hand once he was close enough, but he refused it.When he finally scrambled onto the narrow ledge beside her, and turned around to take in the view, he blanched,
A Second Chance A Second Chance“I love you.”Three words that changed everything.Lily stood there, mouth agape, and Severus could feel himself flushing furiously. He hadn’t meant to say it, but she had been leaving. He could feel her pulling away even as she had dared him seconds ago to tell her why; why when he kept friends like Mulciber and Avery, friends who hated everyone of her blood, should she believe a word he said? She had tried to interrupt him, to walk away, but then he had blurted out those three words in a fit of desperation, and now she stood before him looking as though she
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